Over and over Repeating all day These images haunting me Tearing away My life and my mind Cracking, going to break I'm shaking, fear taking me Mental will fray I'm lost in my own world of recreated hell I'm lost (I'm lost) I'm lost (I'm lost) In hell (In hell) In this mental hell See the pain seething Feel your soul reeling Thougts are racing Heart's palpatating Pulse beating in me like a frantic war drum Focus drowned out by this ceribral hum Creating a soundtrack to the mental visions of my past Haunting me, tormenting me I have some resemblance of peace the past comes crashing back in, bombardments will never cease My head is starting to spin, feeling defeat from within, I can't help but give in Inner demons bombing my mentality, my reality These scerated memories before me explode and shake me to the core These are feelings I can never ignore See the pain seething Feel your soul reeling These memories will crush you A sense of normalcy is what I am needing I'm laying here and I can barely breath

Thoughts become manifest A terror in my eyes but also my closest alley We speak in ways that no one understands They're my own world that no one else can see Thoughts runaway with me, Truth's so hard to see I just want to be free From the chaos in my head Tell me is this real or my reality? There's something I have to do But I really don't want But according to the man So slinder with out stretched hands He beckons me "Do this if you want to be free" Reluctantly I agree I need to protect my family Lure her over here Dear God this is really happening With hidden blade I'm feeling despair "Don't be afraid, I'm so sorry!" Oh! There's so much blood But here is no screams only the sound of metal and flesh Please believe me, I just wanted to be free It seems so real This world that I see isn't reality How can this be? What's happened to me? What's this world that I see if not reality? And they scream take this pill, we'll help you heal But now I can't feel How do I know you're real? I can't tell the difference in the feel Help me! My mind is dragging me under! I can't tell what's safe anymore! I don't know who to believe!

Well I'm not sleeping anymore Endless memories play like movies on repeat But I know how they end! I can't make it stop Thoughts in my mind, they float around They're like thousands of equations Can't find the solution Help me find the solution You try to make it through Your mind betrays you Gripped by fear your hands they shudder I'm growing used to the solitude The past etched in stones shackled to my feet Dragging me under I feel like I'm drowning! And I'm the odd man out No desire in the norms Animoscity forms The damage leaves these scars You try to make it through Your mind betrays you Gripped by fear your hands they shudder Despair embraces you Ambiguity kills you Breaking down your heart it flutters Adrenal fatigue Constant state of fight or flight Wearing my mental fibers thin I'm gasping for breath Like being on the verge of death Rage is the only emotion I know Is this the fruit that I reap? (Please help me find the solution) Because my past runs so deep (The clock dancing away) Panic is starting to creep in (Seconds become minutes become hours) I'm just begging for sleep (My thoughts become sour) This is all that's left of me A rotted out shell with cold dead eyes You try to make it through Your mind betrays you Gripped by fear your hands they shudder Despair embraces you Ambiguity kills you Breaking down your heart it flutters Adrenal fatigue! Help me I'm drowning!

Eyes open to another day Of this nightmare. Shrouded in pain I look around at the shards of this heart The burden weighs so heavy on me We share these memories that haunt me And I, I bare these scars from your suffering Every time I try to pick up the pieces it cuts me a little deeper So much pain I'm driven with fear, you left me standing here My heart wants to hold on to the love we once knew But in my mind are the shadows of you I scream for your return but your love It's...it's been given over to another! Every time I try to pick up the pieces it cuts me a little deeper So much pain I'm driven with fear, you left me standing here I struggle with this failing everyday. Give me back your heart, I'm wasting away On the ground craddling these broken pieces In heartache I smother Loosing strength. Im staring at your demon Every time I try to pick up the pieces it cuts me a little deeper So much pain I'm driven with fear, you left me standing here

How dare you deceive me, manipulate my love for you Building a wall around my heart and blinders over my eyes Then stand back and watch as I stumble about destroying everything around me I loved you Trusted you Cherished you and adored you But you say I'm nothing That I'm no good, that I am worthless! I can't believe after everything I've done for you you could do this me After everything from screams and fights to heartbreak and lonely nights I tried my best to stick by you and be the good man you said I wasn't I worked myself sick to try and meet your expectations But it was never good enough for you It would never be good enough! Eyes open to another day Of this nightmare shrouded in pain I'm no longer caught up in this dirty game Anger and love are not the same! Now you seem more like a stranger My hurt turns over to anger Now I can finally say It's not my fault There's no more love between you and I I'm screaming inside With tears in my eyes I can no longer hide The damage you've left inside Eyes open to another day Of this nightmare shrouded in pain I'm no longer caught up in this dirty game Anger and love are not the same And you say that this is love? I'm finally rid of you and I'm not ashamed How dare you play with my mind You try to tear me down Destroy this house that we built You strike the one you say you love? And give yourself to someone else? You threw it all away! And spit in my face How could you do this?! Pray that one day I will forgive you But until then How dare

Falling to a place deep inside where I hide These scars, memories, this hurt Hiding from the critics. There's no room for tears here! The words you said, tearing me down You hate what is different I just want to be me, I just want to be me! I hear the voice ringing clear "Have no fear. These words can’t hurt you Just let it go they can’t harm you here." These words in my ear Voices say to me "It's alright! It's alright!" Don’t tell me it doesn’t hurt! Hiss of whispers driving into my ears Hateful giggles trailing You poke fun, point fingers, pick fights Don’t tell me it doesn’t hurt! When these words you spit fly like shards of glass cutting me deep When they’re beating her down because they can’t deal with their own fear When you snicker and snarl at him because he’s different When these words don’t break bones but break hearts and spirits, I don’t want to hear it Don’t you dare! I hear the voice ringing clear "Have no fear. These words can’t hurt you Just let it go they can’t harm you here." The words in my ear Voices say to me "It's alright! It's alright!" Don’t tell me it doesn’t hurt!

Thinking back on it all Feeling so nervous But on the surface everything seemed so calm Inviting smiles and warm gestures Luring me, hypnotizing, mezmerizing Blurring my eyes to where I can't see The fakes, the flakes, the snakes I shouldn't let you in Struggling to fight only to see myself Dropping my guard and getting baited in Feeling so alone, I just wanting to be accepted I drink into the lies My intuition, it cries It's telling me I'm headed to my demise Feel your world crashing down but you can't make a sound Falling prey to the wolves and I'm left with nothing Feel your world crashing down and smashing into the ground Falling prey to the wolves but you will remember Day in and day out Struggling just to get out Mind is scattered and jumping around Body like a ton of bricks The day passing by all I can do is stare Stare off into the abyss of this darkness that's eating my consciousness My heart is pounding but I can't seem to catch my breath Feels like the flames are running through my veins Choking on this hurt, panic start creep in It's got a death grip on me I just want to run To get out but I can't seem to find the strength to lift my limbs Feels like I'm smothering Never shoulda let you in I built these walls for a reason But I opened the door and all you brought was treason Oh, you're all the same Just coming in a different seasons Feel your world crashing down and smashing into the ground Falling prey to the wolves but you will remember! See your life flashing now, your body's on the ground Feel all cares passaway and they will remember! So you think you've won But you don't know the half of it Just when you think I'm gone I'll be haunting you in your dreams Feel your world crashing down but you can't even make a sound Falling prey to the wolves I'm left with nothing Feel your world crashing down and smashing in the ground Falling prey to the wolves but you will remember See your life flashing now, your body's laying on the ground Feel all cares passaway and they will remember! While I'm still breathing I am sitting here and greiving I won't get to see your face when you realize what you have done This my final tomb here sitting in your room with the last message Hold my breath here comes the barrel of the gun (Pull the trigger) Press my head against the barrel of the gun (Pull the trigger)